Chill, Unwind, Relax, Relapse.

Life isn’t all that fair, yes I’m aware.

People say that you take control of your own lives. Yeah well, my question to them is, exactly how do I do it? A question that does not imbibe cynicism but rather a pure lack of knowledge of the mechanisms of the modern society.

The irony lies in the fact that one still recognises the symptoms that really defines the rotten side of society. Politics, vices, etc.

Not that I’m an advocate of a perfect world, a utopia. One engages in a variety of vices as well: Alcohol, intoxicating music, as well as a legal prescription of pills. Pills that would very easily alter the metabolisms of your body, pills that help you sleep at night. Apparently. Pills that aid you in dealing with all these… things. In your head. In your mind.

So then, what is it? What do you do? When a paradigm as such is already hardwired and firmly embedded in your mind. Constant cynicism. A bleak view of things. Perhaps it’s hereditary. Seeing how I have such sanctimonious and self-imploding parents. Not that they engage in literal self-imploding devices like alcoholism. They just don’t see that it occurs in their daily lives.

I don’t know how to justify this whole… fiasco. People claim to have come out of depression and just harshly assert, “Stop feeling sorry for yourself, and get over it.”

It’s not really a question of feelings sorry for oneself, but it’s a constant thing. A view of life that isn’t exactly healthy.

Apparently.

So… what do you do, ultimately, when the only apparent way has not exactly taken effect? What do you do when pills do not work?