I doubt if you’d ever see this but I’ll say it anyway.
I sometimes wonder how things would turn out if I hadn’t made that move to approach you when you were alone outside the scgs hall 5 years ago. Maybe I wouldn’t be hurting today, and maybe I’d be a much happier person. (JUST maybe)
But I know that I wouldn’t be the person I am today if it wasn’t for you. Before I knew it, you became an intrinsically important part of my life. And before I knew it (further) I fell for you so hard, so fast, so deep that I do not see the end of this abyss after all these years. And my free fall hasn’t stopped, and I haven’t even started to climb out of it.
But I do know one thing, though. Had I not made the move to get to know you, I bet I’d still be regretting it today. Because back when I first met you that was how much I was attracted to you.
I do not have the courage to say this to you face to face, but really, although I’ve said this to you many times for different reasons; thank you. For everything you’ve done for me. Even if you would not accept my love, or even my thanks, I would say it anyway. I love you, and thank you. I only hope that someday you’d find that person who would really care for you and love you. (Even though… I am here for you.)
Well. I guess that’s another big chunk of my heart and soul gone. Sigh maybe getting callused isn’t that bad after all.